funk

So lately as some of you know I've been in a funk. No, I don't want to talk about it and I'm not doing okay. And it's not just because Dylan still is sick. The antibiotics didn't work well so I need to call his pediatrician again since the pulmonologist is on vacation and have him be seen again. We have a LVN coming this afternoon who was suppose to come on Friday night and didn't show up, but left a message on my cell which I didn't hear for hours after our missed appointment, saying she was not going to make it because she got off late from her shift somewhere else and was hungry. I spent Saturday shopping with my mom. I really didn't need anything since I'm almost done Christmas shopping. Just last minute things. I'm glad I got most of it done the day after Thanksgiving. Brianna is sure to be bored the next few weeks without preschool. any ideas on fun activities for kids that aren't too messy. I'm thinking that I need to schedule a few play dates for her. Maybe it's weird but I really am enjoying the rain. Not the cold but the rain. It's very peaceful. The one thing that I dislike about this weather is that it makes it hard to run with or without the kids.

I've been reading a good book about "Leading a Compassionate Life and the unexpected benefits of kindness". It's been interesting. I can't say I believe all of the theological stuff the author talks about but it definitely has some good points.

So how many of you have to travel east down Folsom Blvd. Since construction is going on Folsom and Watt is a nightmare. Well on Saturday I got flipped off by this chick who must not live in the area because she must not know about the crappy lane change job the construction workers did. I can't believe how many accidents that I, family or friends have almost been in, because of the poor markings on the road. I've been trying to figure out who I can contact to put in a complaint in the hopes that the road will be marked better.......

Anyhow...off to another Monday...some stuff just a different day!

Think good thoughts

Dylan has pneumonia. Kalen took him to the doctor for me on Saturday. He is on an antibotic and has a follow up appointment on Monday. Hopefully we will see a change in his xray, since the one on Sat. was pretty bad.... Just think good thoughts for us. I"m sacred that we are going to have a repeat like we did last year. Is RSV next??? Hopefully he will be able to stay out of the hospital...

Before I was a mom

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put him or her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom..
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .

Dylan did it!!

I just had a few minutes, but wanted to let everyone know how excited Kalen and I are. Dylan is eating oatmeal again. It's been months since he has eaten a solid food. we were worried that he would lose that skill. We are sticking with oatmeal and feeding tube formula for now, but maybe he will gain all of his eating skills back. I promise I'll post pics, thanksgiving updates, and everything else that's going on. and Emily I really hope to call you this week. Things have just been a little crazy....