As each month continues to go by, I'm still amazed that it's been one more month. I can't believe that next month will mark the year mark. One whole year without him. It's hard to fathom. It's so overwhelming to think about how long it will be until I see him again. That part is really hard for me. I miss Dylan so much. My heart still aches and has a huge hole in it. Trying to make sense of what our family has been through this past year is hard to wrap my head around.
I still haven't found my "new normal". Now with a newborn here, I feel so lost. I don't know what I'm doing. I pray that Isabella will be patient with me as I continue to figure out what I'm doing.
I feel so bad for Brianna. I know she needs more and I just don't have it in me. Recovering from my c-section is hard. Being exhausted makes it harder. And grieving makes it so extremely hard.
I feel like I have a lot on my plate that must get done daily. Most things don't get done daily. But I try to do the most important.
Sorry this post is all over the place. I have a lot on my mind and heart today.
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Hi--I've been checking your blog since you gave me the link. If you need a baby break and want to talk with another mom who's going through an extremely similar experince let me know. Or...we can chat with our babies, Aidan's little brother is 6 months old.
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